Cue the violins.
It was a bit embarassing to say the least. I couldn't even keep up.
Is that ok?!
Yeah. It actually is.
Here is why. It's ok because I have to start somewhere. It's time to face my insecurity and lack of motivation. It's important that I do this in front of others.
I am out of shape and now people know.
It will get better. I know this.
It's just hard to face. It's beyond hard to feel the sense of failure and frustration stemming from allowing myself to become so sluggish.
NO MATTER WHAT, I CAN'T REMAIN THE SAME.
I am not going to wallow.
I am going to MOVE.
The line has been drawn in the sand.